prayer

lots of stuff happening in class. especially around a certain person and perhaps 3 or 4 or 5 people? pretty complicated that got me affected.
but i shouldnt really care right? and it's not really my problem so there's no reason why i should be praying for myself. i pray that You will give my friends strength and endurance. especially peace in their hearts.

youth performance. big major thing. dont know what is really happening since it is not really my idea. still need to work on it and get a hell lot of cooperation and preparation done. Lord, this project is yours. use me as an instrument of your will.

i pray for wisdom as i talk to a friend about you tomorrow. that you can guide me and let me know the right and correct things to say.

i pray for my dad who is leaving to jakarta. i pray that you will give him a sense of peace and assurance. that he would not stumble.

i pray that you would give me the strength to not depend so much on others, and to encourage my friends as well.

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james 3:13-18
two kinds of wisdom
who is wise and understanding among you? let him show it by his good life, by deeds done in the humility that comes from wisdom. but if you harbor bitter envy and selfish ambition in your hearts, do not boast about it or deny the truth... for where you have envy and selfish ambition, there you find disorder and every evil practice. but the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all, pure, peace-loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere...
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check my heart. why do i want wisdom?
it cant be for selfish reasons
i want it because i want to glorify God and help my friends.
i used to want to be like a lot of people i know. like daniel, who is so gifted in tongue, performing and faith. marianne who has the gift of encouragement and empathy.. bubu.. jeff.. many many people. but they were for selfish reasons. so thats why i keep fumbling and failing.. right now, im sure i want wisdom is truly cause i want to be God's instrument.

wisdom is not only about knowing what to say. you must be pure, peace-loving, considerate, submissive, merciful, sincere and impartial...

so im going to try that. im going to stop being so self-centered. i have to stop thinking about myself and start serving others.

Lord, gives me the wisdom to discern what is wrong and what is right.

samquek