mom

i think, it is obvious from my main blog, how eee-ritated i am with my mom. i dont get her. i mean, i do respect her for working damn hard for the family, suffering and how evil i am for not appreciating that. but i think, it's not entirely my fault. i think there's some problems with her too.

Lord, teach me to be patient with her. that i can learn to appreciate her and show my love for her. that i may learn to love this family more than my friends.

thank you for sustaining me through another day of fasting. thank you for giving me the energy for school. thank you that i have quite an enjoyable day.
im sorry for what happened in the afternoon. im sorry for the mean and evil thoughts of today. im sorry for being rude to my mom. im sorry for being so proud instead of humble.

oh Lord, you search me. you know my name. even when i fail you, i know you love me. your holy presence, surrounding me. in every season, i know you love me. at the cross i bow my knees where your blood was shed for me. there's no greater love thn this. you have overcome the grave, glory fills the higher place. what can separate me now. you go before me..

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revelation 2:1-7
to the church of ephesus
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while trying to do deeds for the Lord, and trying to endure the challenges and trails, (which is good), dont forget the basic of it all. Jesus. in the center of everything you do.

"i know your deeds, your hard work and your perseverance... you have persevered and have endured hardships for my name, and have not growth weary. yet i hold this against you: you have forsaken your first love. remember the height from which you have fallen.."

take it all, Lord.
lets my walk speak loud, and my words be true. Lord im stepping out, from my comfort zone. letting go of me, holding on to you. freedom comes, when i call you Lord. you are Lord, my God. you are the center of my life. the universe declares it all. your majesty, i surrender all. i make you the center of my life. you place in me the song of heaven's melody. your majesty, i live to sing your song. this is your song, not mine, that brings healing to this land.

Father, as i break this fast soon..
i pray for these..
1. for me to remember you as the center of my life.
2. for me to give you glory in whatever i do. that people may see me in you.
3. for endurance to my friend and letting him know you're always there for him
4. for my close friends' salvation
5. fir my family to love one another and home.